3 days to go

Hello,
It's been a while. I haven't had the heart to write. Plus I've been blessed to have my grandchildren quite a bit lately! How lucky for me! I have a new plan...have them constantly until THE MOVE (3 days from now) and I'll be ready to send them off! Ha! Not so. I don't think that will help. But I am enjoying so much being with them. Savoring every last experience, word, smile from them. I now only get sad about seven times a day...then I pull myself together. The kids spent the night last week. I got teary at one point thinking about them moving, and Jake said "what's wrong with your face, grandma?". So funny! I think I'm almost out of tears, but then more come. I really pray that a peacefulness comes over me so I can say goodbye without being too emotional for Jake's benefit. And I have to go to work...my face swells if I cry too much. This is not good. "Come back to the present moment." That's what I keep telling myself and trying to do. It works most of the time.
- Anne